my fingers were sort of itching... not really, but i read it on heike's blog and sort of liked the expression... so here we are... here i am, at least... facebook sort of took the place of everybody's blog... well, my life is going on... is happening... without me knowing how much influence i can have or i have on what actually happens to me... sometimes i think i am being passive... not liking what is happening, not doing anything to change it...
i was talking to jeff the other day... he said something that sort of hit me... he said: you can't stear a ship that is not moving... i think it's something "uncle" george said many times...
u gotta move, u gotta try make a step in one direction... any direction... God will take it from there... adjust your course to where he wants to lead you...
i was feeling very unsatisfied at work, i wanted to leave, go away...
as soon as i "decided" i was gonna go away, i was gonna try to move to a different country, i started feeling better about what i do now...
as soon as i started moving the ship, and stear it towards a different country, my mindset changed about my own...
for months i thought God was using this year to make clear to me that this is NOT where i belong, that this is NOT where i am supposed to be... now i am not so sure anymore...
i am still very confused... but got my smile back... :-)
