bold lines...

i got more than one... just having a good chat with a few precious friends... so now i put my smile back on... and feel a lot better... thank YOU and thank you guys... you know who you are...

on of those days again...

oh gosh... i feel so lonely it almost hurts...
maybe it's because i have nothing to do so i spend way too much time thinking, but i don't know if i can handle this for much longer...
it's another saturday, another weekend... another day that i'll probably spend at home, reading a book or chatting on yahoo with far away friends... i don't know what God is trying to teach me, but it is very painful... very hard... and i am not sure if i can do this a lot longer... actually i know i can't... and i feel stupid, cause i really have no reason to complain... i better off than a lot of other people i know or i've met... but maybe i am just not able to take on as much... i am reading this book where the main characters have this quite close relationship with God and whenever they are in difficulf situation, there it comes... His voice... printed bold in the book, for the reader to identify as well... and right now i'd love to have one of those bold lines...

nostalgic mood...

... it is not always like that... most of the time i can really say that i am fine... but sometimes... BANG... it just hits me... and i just start missing it sooooooooooo much... the ship, life on the ship, people on the ship, jokes on the ship, even my messy cabin... the doulos is and will always be part of me... and i even miss talking about it... people at home do not understand, they don't want to hear... but you know what? they don't know what they are missing... my antidote to sadness is listening to worship music, with my eyes closed... pretending to be in the ML... surrounded by those wonderful people... and PTL for yahoo, skype, msn, facebook and all this other stuff... it really makes it easier... to keep in touch or even just to talk to someone who comes from your same planet when you think you can't cope with life anymore... i love you all, people... i really do... :-)