half way through...

time really flies... 3 weeks alrealy gone... 3 weeks left... i am trying to go see as many people as possible, show them my pictures... find out about their lives... trying to catch up...
last sunday i got to share at my church... i was a bit concerned that i would be kind of bored of the service, because after 2,5 years of sunday services on board, i am used to a different style... of worship especially... God surprised me again... as we were singing one of those hymns, i liked the melody... sometimes i get distracted by the music and forget to think about the words... i almost started crying when we sang "He won hell and death"... i actually did cry... i wish i waited for the unexpected more often, instead of deceiving myself and expect the least from every situation, so that i cannot be disappointed... God is so much greater than anything i could ever imagine...

visiting friends...

wow... i have been home for just over a week and i already flew to naples once... and now i am going to visit friends all over the places... it's exciting... i am trying to visit as many people as possible... catch up with them... the wedding was great... i should post some pictures... but have not had time to sit down at the computer properly and write all this down... now i have to run again... have to go pack for my trip around italy... kind of...

home again...

for 6 weeks... so weird... i really feel out of place... a fish out of the water... don't know how to relate to people anymore... sometimes i feel invisible for others... at the wedding today i wanted to run away... go find a quite place... with noone around... i was so scared to come home... and now i see that i had more than enough reasons to be scared... it is not all in my mind, it really is difficult to fit into this reality again... i don't think i could fit here long term ever again... i know i cannot... a further confirmation that God really must have another plan... but what is it God? where do you want me to go?
tomorrow another wedding... cinzia's... i am so excited to go... it will be good... tiring but good... God, please let these not be the longest 6 weeks of my life... please please please...