for 6 weeks... so weird... i really feel out of place... a fish out of the water... don't know how to relate to people anymore... sometimes i feel invisible for others... at the wedding today i wanted to run away... go find a quite place... with noone around... i was so scared to come home... and now i see that i had more than enough reasons to be scared... it is not all in my mind, it really is difficult to fit into this reality again... i don't think i could fit here long term ever again... i know i cannot... a further confirmation that God really must have another plan... but what is it God? where do you want me to go?
tomorrow another wedding... cinzia's... i am so excited to go... it will be good... tiring but good... God, please let these not be the longest 6 weeks of my life... please please please...
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Hey Girl... if it will make you feel better... i always feel like the weird one, and i never manage to fit in... and i am not joking lah!!!! But i tell you one thing... most of the times its fun to be weird one, cause you can get away with a lot...
try and enjoy being home... things like real milk... real cheese... good coffee... no curfew... you know... the "important" things:)
hope to hear from you again!
ciao tesoro,
so che ti senti un po' meglio e che ti stai godendo un po' di meritato riposo (dormire qualche volta fino a tardi ti può solo fare del bene!!).
Goditi questi giorni e lasciati viziare un po'...
mamma
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